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Today I feel really sad. Many things happened throughout the day – from excitement to disappointment.

I walked down the street. It was drizzling. The cold air stung my skin, and my heart felt just as numb.

In that moment, I felt extremely lost.

A thought suddenly crossed my mind: 

Should I just go back to Vietnam?

The whole way home, I didn’t cry. I kept thinking maybe it was because I was outside, so I couldn’t cry, and that once I got back to my room with no one around, the tears would come.

But when I got home, I still didn’t cry.

I was sad and quite depressed, yet I couldn’t shed a single tear.

I think the reason I couldn’t cry

is because deep down, I know that crying won’t solve anything.

Recently, there’s been a picture circulating online of a little horse named 吗小野 with a quote:

“ 你可以渺小，可以平凡，可以軟弱，可以哭泣，可以不擅長應對，但只要你堅持下去，你就可以變得偉大，變得成功，變得光芒萬丈。”

“You can be small, ordinary, weak, emotional, and not good at facing things, but as long as you keep going, you can become great, successful, and shine brightly.”

This is also what I have to remind myself of right now.