​​When did I truly recognize my own confidence?

As I write these lines, it’s been seven months since I moved to Taiwan. Time flies, doesn’t it?

A Taiwanese friend of mine always responds whenever I exclaim:

“時間過得很快!”

“很快樂。”

(A play on words, “快” meaning both “fast” and “happy.” We joke that time passes quickly, and it’s been a happy time.)

Today, I happened to look back at photos from when I first arrived in Taiwan. Back then, everything was so new and strange to me; I was curious about everything and wanted to explore everything.

At that time, I wasn’t afraid of making mistakes, wasn’t afraid of embarrassment, wasn’t afraid of being judged. Because in a foreign land, who would pay attention to the details of what I was doing?

Looking back now, I realize that was my confident self. Just having a steady heart and a calm mind, doing what I wanted to do and not doing what I didn’t want to do. And so, my confidence gradually grew, accumulating without me even realizing it.

I’m someone who cares a lot about how others see me. But whenever I talk to my friends and ask them what kind of person I am, their answers are completely different from what I think of myself.

I always think I’m not good enough, not talented enough, not beautiful enough. I still have small flaws, like sometimes getting upset with my friends. But none of my true friends remember those things. They only remember the good memories, the times we were happy and sad together.

People, you know, only care about themselves. No one really cares about the times we’re embarrassed or make mistakes.

So, be confident!

Nearly forget, have you ever asked yourself, what’s the point of being confident?

I think everyone will have their own answer. For me, I don’t try to be confident just to “show off” to others. Confidence simply helps me be happier in this life.

Time flies, being happy is enough.

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